I sank

I never thought I would sink so low as to even doubt my faith in God cause I never ever had any chink in my armour until now. Although I'm alright now, I despise myself on how weak I was the past week. I knew all I had to do was pray and believe; I did pray but I didn't believe...damn me! So I consequently suffered a lot of worries and traumatic surprises by way of things not going as I had planned/anticipated. I'm telling you: I 'did not' deserve any goodwill whatsoever from the Man up there with my shaky ground! Hard to believe I'm writing this with my faith intact now.